Pathetic Me

Posted at 06:32 AM

i feel like a loser today.

i have no control of myself. it takes me lots of times before i learn my lesson. i needed to hurt myself so badly, several times, before i see the point... before i hit my head. why am i so stupid?

Why do we have feelings?

Coming Closer To You

Posted at 01:35 AM

the irony of life.

ignorance is a bliss. confusion leads to decisiveness which leads to happiness.

when you did something you are not sure of, it's either you felt happy or you regret it. it's just two things. or maybe, three. you may also feel confused. but people who have no idea why things happen, should know why it happens. you don't let the moment pass you by and take it as that. you should ask. you should know.

because, i know. it was real; at least, for me.

Take me somewhere... I've got so much to see...

In a place I can call mine. In a place I can call mine...

Pure Shores - All Saints

Men And Women (an MRT insight)

Posted at 02:39 AM

When: This morning
Where: MRT Train

when women sit down in mrt, it must be their "right".
when men sit down in mrt, we are not "gentlemen".

how come, even if offered, women still prefer to stand up inside the train? somehow, men do want to sit down, too. so, sometimes, given the chance, we grab this opportunity. but still, we are called to be not gentlemen even if the women around prefer to stand up.

I just don't get it... Women...

deeper...
we see protests of women who want to be treated equally in this society. does this so-called society include the community of train passengers? well then, let's have equal rights inside the train, shall we?

violent reactions? drop me a curse at YM: coecolby

world peace to y'all.
Tumatakbo

Hail to Bonnie Bailey

Posted at 08:38 AM

Ever After
the song that can make me dance, naked

Three years ago, my journey began
Chasing down with you, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my raising guide in the dark
Just no win with conviction from the start

The moment your eyes made an introduction
I found my second value in the breath of life
Flawless to the point of being cuddly
I fell all for, your imperfections

And now it’s like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together, eye to eye through the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t no pourin', in this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like were floating when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love and all the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine

Emotions I gave it eruptions
We both still care, so it’s still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you; I want to make it right

And now it’s like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together, eye to eye through the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t no pourin', in this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

You are my twisted sunshine
You are my twisted sunshine...

it's funny how this song can make you see disco lights in your own room, can make you forget about your problems and can make you look for the twisted sunshine you've always been yearning...

My New Bestfriend

Posted at 08:32 AM

Quoted from a film,

"Friendship is like a flow dwelling in two bodies, never stop..."


I found a new bestfriend. Always there for me when I want to feel home. They say you will "feel" that friendship exists even if you aren't physically present for each other. But how come there are still so-called friends that you are not sure. You just don't "feel" it.

But with my new bestfriend, I just know. I don't have to ask. Thanks to MRT. You rock! I just hope the friggin' billboard won't interrupt your operation next time...



The good thing with trains is that only billboard falling on them will stop them from their responsibility. From their friendship...

Coldplay- The Scientist

Posted at 08:07 AM

thanks to this blogger, made me love the song much much more... i can listen to it all day 24/7 never getting tired...



I was just thinking of how I should start analysing and critically assessing my favourite songs.

Okay, not really critically assessing but more, talking about it. Yeah.


I guess my dad was right when he said how songs nowadays don't have any layers or aren't deep enough. (He was talking in referance to The Eagles-'Hotel California', does anyone seriously know what this song is about?)

Anyway, I guess the surface of The Scientist is pretty clear. When anyone hears this song, the memory of a past relationship resurfaces. It doesn't matter if the past love was painful or a pleasure, the song is haunting enough to make one dig up these old memories.

The chorus itself reeks like a conversation between two people:-

Person#1: Nobody said it was easy.
Person#2:Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Person#1: Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be so hard
Person#2: I'm going back to the start.

Of course, this is all what I have in my mind. When we all know in fact, it's just him that's thinking all this.

The song embodies what it feels like when a relationship is over and done with- trying to examine the whole thing under a microscope to see what happened or what went wrong.

Albeit, The Scientist.

In a way, he is trying to explain the relationship using "scientific logics". Hoping this way, he can rectify what he had done wrong to get back with his love.

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
If you refer to my previous post, about how I discussed with a friend of the subjectivity of feelings- same goes for this.

He realises he can't use science to explain it, because love just doesn't work like that. There's no way you can measure it or place any conclusive evidence on something so open to interpretation.

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

As much as he tries to examine it, he can't. He does whatever it takes and goes back to how it all began. Again and again. Just wanting to know what went wrong.

Running in circles
Chasing tails
And coming back as we are

The music video itself very much mirrored the meaning of the song. The video experimented with the the theory of relativity- going back in time.

Just like in the song, how he goes "back in time" to solve everything.

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The song doesn't try to explain the outcome of what he does. Or even what he did for that matter. Instead, it concentrates on what he feels and does just at that moment. It doesn't tell a story.

It shows just how much the heart has so much more control over the mind. It's no point looking at the physical surface without taking a better look at what's inside of it.

This was my own interpretation of course..I personally think the song can be looked at in different ways.

And my dad says songs don't have meanings anymore! PFFT!

Take Me Now

Posted at 05:39 AM

i remember what morrie schwartz said: "Detach yourself."


these past few nights when i put myself to sleep, i search for comfort. i search for a person. then, i close my eyes and detach myself from depression. i will wake up the next day thinking it is a brand new day. then the sun sets, time for bed again, i realize that everything is the same...

i am just fooling myself. the right ones have always been there in front of you. you're not just looking closely.

will you look at me?


Love Song For No One - John Mayer

Wake Up Wake Up

Posted at 05:34 PM

i was thinking how the hell did lindsay lohan and hilary duff became recording artists??? just a pretty face... then i'm taking my word back because i used to sing "So Yesterday" last year for one straight week everytime I walk home...

sucks man...

"You are the champion of my heart..."

I saw "Cinderella Man" earlier this evening. I am not really a boxing fan but the chills I had... man just like "Million Dollar Baby"...

hurry up and get here

Posted at 11:56 AM

at some point in our lives (or maybe just my life), we tend to become really cynical. i'm new in the work-world. i hoped for this time to come. now i am here. i will get to spend more than i thought i will, then i realize that it's not just about being stable. it is about having someone, too.

when people who genuinely care for us came at times when we are "not in the mood" for a relationship, it's ok. but when we are in the mood, no one comes our way. are you in love with me? hurry up and get here!

"Love is all about timing.

It is of no use, meeting the right person, too soon or too late."

- Chow Mo-Wan, 2046

About Lying

Posted at 01:53 PM

Each new day brings with it a new set of lies.

The worst are the ones we tell ourselves right before we fall asleep. We whisper them in the dark, telling ourselves we're happy, or that he's happy. That we can change, or that he will change his mind.

We persuade ourselves that we can live with our sins, or that we can live without him. Yes, each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate, desperate hope that come morning - it will all be true.

desperatehousewives

On Being A Taxpayer

Posted at 11:15 AM

almost done on my first week at work...

alabang to cubao. that is so near for me, ya think? gladly (but not quite sure yet), i'll be trained for the next 3 wks in makati... and i wish to stay there longer.

the best things about being in the office:

1. free coffee

2. unlimited internet access

3. free coffee

4. free coffee