I'm at the hospital room now.

Boring.

Save for the neuro resident that I have a crush on. Hehe.

Cutie.

That's okay, I tell myself, cause I won't see him for good.

But just in case, I'm hanging around here so I can get glimpses.

I'm like a school girl having a crush. Hehe.

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My mom's at rehab now, her turn to stay in rehab. Hahaha.

Of course, my rehab is far from hers. Hers is mild and not really restricting.

Mine is the intensive 6-month program with nutcases like myself. Haha.

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JT is a very pleasant friend. I walked her home last night, since she lives at the next subdivion.

That's all, I guess save for the weight of my responsibility now- planning her diet, managing the finances and all that.

So I'm officially discharged! Yahoo!

Would you believe I had 42 shirts there?

And at home, I have like 30 shirts.

I dunno where it all came from...

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S is going to HK for his birthday, which is tomorrow.

He's worried that I'm going to "forget me in a heartbeat."

Huh? He'll be gone for 3 days lang.

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I'm having dinner with JT, my friend from rehab.

I'm quite excited because I have alot of news to share with her.

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I'm trying to ignore my feelings surrounding J, mainly because I don't want to have to hurt him again.

J said he doesn't want to suffocate me again.

It made me remember why I dumped him 2 years ago: he's smothering me with his kindness and love.

I'm pretty sure I'll go away.

My mom had a stroke.

I don't know yet what to make of it.

She needs to be rehabilitated for 2-3 months after.

She's still in the ICU and her blood sugar is sky high.

I sleep in the waiting area, for the 2nd night in a row now.

She underwent a great series of tests- ECG, CBG, electrolyte balance test, CT scan- plain and contrast, 2D Echo, CBC, X-ray- the works. And they still can't pinpoint where the stroke originated?

Is it cerebellar? or mural in origin?

Ewan.

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I'm thinking of avoiding J.

I don't want to hurt him all over again...