day 10: surrender

Posted at 12:18 PM

You tried so hard to be someone That you forgot who you are You tried to fill some emptiness Til all you had spilled over



i think i am transforming into someone i never expected.

this morning, i thought about being early in school for me to study. i didn't get the chance. but i like the thought that my instructor likes me and my friend. last friday, we were asked to read a topic, we did. and we're the only ones who did. he's so proud of us. (sarap sumipsip!)

speaking of sipsipan...
on my way to school, may katabi akong effeminate sa bus. i knew he's checking up on me. but i didn't expect that he'll be that aggressive! he's trying to show that it is an accident. i have my book and filecase in my lap so the scary hands won't touch my birdie. however, maybe he's on a raging libido so early in the morning, imagine 8am and so excited to see a bird? i would have responded with a conversation, not with his sipsipan motive.

amp! bakit ba ko nag-eenglish? ewan ko! i wanted to join this english society in our school. it's so weird for a technical student to join an org like that, but there's just something in me screaming inside, YOU GEEK! YOU HAVE TO JOIN THIS OR YOU DIE!



earlier, i had another duty. it was fun. i dismissed the class at 2:30, they're supposed to be dismissed at 4:30. what the heck! the instructor left them and he told me i'm in charge. he's got to attend a meeting, which is actually a fake alibi. i returned the students' papers in the faculty room and i saw him chatting in YM. so much for a meeting!
master of the game - sheldon someone to die for (spidey soundtrack)

fun time!

Posted at 09:40 AM

1.Open your browser
2.Type http://www.google.com in the Address field and press enter
3.Click on "Language Tools" link ( below News tab)
4.In the Translate text field type "my mom is nice and cool."
5.Choose from "English to Spanish" and click Translate
6.Copy the translated Spanish text. it should be "mi mama está
agradable y fresca." and paste it into Translate field again.
7.Choose from "Spanish to English" and click Translate See the result
and analyze and report


try it try it!!! NO JOKE!

day 14: becoming bestfriend

Posted at 10:04 AM

______________________________________________
have you ever been into a situation when things that have not happened yet seems to haunt you? you're like, stuck into this scenario, which keeps repeating in your mind, but it is not really happening? dammit! i hate it!

you know that feeling when you're so confident to ask that someone to go out, but never given the chance. well, i do. and it sucks! you will hate it more than you hate the nicest stench of fart. PUTRAGES TALAGA!
______________________________________________


more about putrages stuff...
kanina, 9am exam ko sa assembly. i decided to wake up really early para mag-arap sa skul, hoping na 8am andun na ko. ang AGA ko umalis, 6:30. tapos putrages talaga. tapos na yung ulan pero ANTRAPIK! sa putrages na expressway. they should've changed express into a more suitable word! 3 hours. as in 3 freakin' hours nakalapag ung puwet ko sa upuan ng bus! lam nyo ung, 9am na tapos nsa makati pa rin ako! putrages gusto ko na tlaga lumipad! asteeg! pumasok ako ng 9:50am. at natapos ko ang lintik na exam ng 10:20am! putrages, ang hangin ko!
master of the game confessions

holy shhh...

Posted at 09:35 AM

for the past two weeks, all my favorite series are coming to an end...

last tuesday, i gave myself a dose of sex and the city marathon, 8 episodes until 2am! somehow, nakakapagpaisip. final season premiere na next week!!!

tapos tapos na rin ang charmed. tapos na rin ang six feet under! putrages!

GOOD NEWS!
tanggap ako sa scholarship na na-applyan ko! medyo iniisip ko pa kung sasabihin ko ke mommy. kasi yung educ. plan ko 40% lang sagot, eto sagot 50%, so medyo maliit na lang babayaran namin. kaya tataas na allowance ko!!!

yun lang...
masaya - bamboo

24: act of desperation

Posted at 09:39 AM

friday 1400
nanood kami ni the village. putrages, para kang tinakot tapos ginago. nagplano kami na gigimik kami the next day.

saturday 0900
naglinis si mommy ng kwarto ko. (fyi, i am a very responsible son)kaya inde na nman ako makahinga ng maayos dahil pumasok ang lupa sa baga ko. isa lang klase ko pero pumasok pa rin ako. natulog ako sa clinic ng 2 oras. tapos nagpa-overdose sa gamot para makagimik.

saturday 1800
punta sa dorm ni tan para matulog at magre-energize. (inde naman ako ganun ka-excited). nag-dinner tapos nag-online sa 17/hr na computer shop, tarages ang mura!

saturday 2200
dumating na ang mga kasama namin. tapos biglang umulan. tapos inde tumigil. tapos nagdadalawang-isip na kmi kung tutuloy kami.

sunday 0030
tumuloy pa rin kami. nakapayong. ang jologs namin pucha!

sunday 0700
umuwi ako. nalimutan ko magpaalam. inde ako pinagalitan. sabi ko inaccessible daw ang cnasabi sa landline kaya inde nila matanggap ang tawag ko. (totoo to) tapos, tulog.

values learned:
makonsyensya. magtipid. magpayong.

monday 1700
natanggap ko na ang allowance ko sa paga-assist. astiG! ang laki ng sahod! meron na kong pangkwek-kwek.

corny.
purpose driven life Jesus Walks - Kanye West!

hormones racing with the speed of light

Posted at 10:04 AM

i can't wait for tonight!!! the final season premiere of sex and the city!

i don't think i'll be thrilled watching amazing race tomorrow since every fan knows that it's non-elimination round. i just wished chip and kim gets terminated next!

***
reporting ko kanina, i decided to wear formal from our house to school. kasi magugusot pa pag binaon ko. i am the last reporter of the group and dammit, yung groupmate ko kinopy paste lahat ng lecture sa power point presentation! praning! darn! ubos tuloy oras ko! naputol and report ko! tarages!!!
here in my room - incubus

how?

Posted at 08:57 AM

How to make an onadmraz

Ingredients: 1 part competetiveness 3 parts arrogance 1 part empathy

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion

points to ponder... or not to?

Posted at 09:08 AM

when friendship is strained or broken, plan a peace conference immediately. don't procrastinate, make excuses, or promise "i'll get around to it someday." schedule a face-to-face meeting as soon as possible. delay only deepens resentment and makes matters worse. in conflict, time heals nothing; it causes hurts to fester.
unforgetful you -JarsofClay

am i?

Posted at 11:53 AM


As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming.


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i am a good boy i tell ya!

Posted at 08:36 AM

Take the quiz: "Are You A Serial Killer?"

You're normal, thank God.
Nope. you won't be killing anyone. Just watch out for those that do..

coffee + poison

Posted at 08:55 AM

got a story to tell...

i love it. i've been getting my free coffee for two days now. yeah, it is cheap. nescafé lang! but it's not about the coffee. the models of nescafé has been in alabang area for 3 days now. i enjoy the not-so cheap coffee while flirting with all of them. now that's what i call great morning!

onad is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.

N POISON

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how come? D12

who am i kidding?

Posted at 10:35 AM

when you're looking for a good time, it isn't just about spending more. it's spending less.

more likely, the things that can make us happy happen during the times that we are not even aware we're having a good time. the moment you notice, it will be gone. < i learned this from the song clarity > and that what happened to me this weekend! (finally got my intro right!)

sa totoo lang, gusto ko manood ng sine. then i realized, i've been talking for five hours in the bench with me ann enjoying the ambience of one of the coolest places to hang out. greenbelt. astig!

on my way home, i bought (yet again) another pirated cd. who am i kidding? bob ong says they are not gods for me to spend my 500 bucks. look, maybe, i'd rather risk my player. besides, my player is used to piracy and if it's not pirated, it's not playing. cool huh? whaddyathink?

pieces . . . pieces . . . pieces of me . . .
I DON'T WANT TO BE - gavin deGraw

i'm a specialist's son

Posted at 10:34 AM

I AM SOOOO IN LUV WITH THIS SONG! DAMMIT! here's Gavin DeGraw with "I Don't Want to Be". it's currently no.56 in the Billboard Hot 100 Singles. the hell do you care?! also, it is no.23 in the final countdown over magic 89.9. the hell do you care again. well, i care. dammit!


I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
if you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
I don't want to be

i cannot lie, i don't know how

Posted at 06:08 AM

my heart is drenched in wine . . .

hindi pala wine, red horse.

walang kokontra...

the last time i felt this feeling was two years ago. and now, it's happening again. masaya. a wise man once told me that you should capture your fear. pag masaya kasi, ur afraid that something bad, or worse, will happen next. i practiced that belief until last night. you cannot be really happy when you foresee something sad's coming, right?

i learned: enjoy the spur of the moment while it lasts without anything in mind. in short, enjoy.

questions:

can you really be honest when you're drunk? i'd say yes. what about you?

how can you tell that one's happiness is just short-lived if you are at that moment of being happy? i couldn't help but wonder. do things really come off better with time? can we say that when things happened so fast, it will end that fast?

*sighs*

===end of drama===
tattooed on my mind - d`sound

day 25: do i look happy?

Posted at 04:53 AM

i am transormed by trouble.

i'm surrounded by imposters everywhere i turn.
i'm surrounded by identity-crisis everywhere i turn.
am i the only one to notice?
i can't be the only one who's learned?

kwento:

pag ako badtrip, i get to do this one habit that i only do once in every three months. kagabi yung last. but i don't think i'll have to wait for another 3 months do it again, am gonna do it again later!

i'm still upset.

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one more thing:
FUCK! all the drama! it dnt mean shit now!
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purpose driven life