i am onad, NO MORE!

Posted at 09:46 AM

after 11 weeks (or less), tapos na ang term! enrolmnt namin sa tuesday tapos balik skul next monday. asteeg! ang haba ng bakasyon!

11:30 pm nako umuwi kgabi galing sa kung san san. nagpa-pick up na naman... i never failed to surprise myself half thinking that my finals will start at 9am. paguwi ko, kain, nood (nanood pa) the making ng day after, tapos aral (kuno) til 1am. tapos gising ng 5:30am tapos kain, ligo. sa bus, aral uli. tapos inantok. tulog. tapos pgdating ko skul nakapost "exam in KOHP483 friday 3:30pm", putrages talaga mga prof ko. kahapon ung exam ko compiler sabi rin 9am tapos nging 4pm. bad news: naghintay at nagwaldas ng pera. good news, exempted sa prehong subject! sarap! modesty aside, medyo ineexpect ko na yun! eh badtrip! nanod kami ng SPIDERMAN2! ayos! di tlga ako mahilig sa comics-turned-movies pero this one is awesome! gnda pa ng screenplay.

"I believe there's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble and finally allows us to die with pride."

last tues nga pla nalimutan ko pnoorin six ft under pucha! kakaaral nalimutan ko tuesday night pala nalala ko lang 11pm na tapos na! buti na lang replay sa sabado!
ordinary by train

AM A surVivOR!

Posted at 06:04 AM

yehey! pasado ako ke sugay!

Course Section Grade
EEHP463 B1 1.50
EEHP483 A1 3.00
ELHP413 B13 3.00
KOHP423 B1 2.25
KOHP483 B1 1.50

ang hangin...

last night, i was watching "seabiscuit", and it was good. this morning, i watched "mystic river", and it was superb! then i say, sean penn, tim robbins, kevin bacon, marcia gay harden and the entire cast did an excellent job!

the moment i woke up, (woke up na nman?), parang music recorder ung isip ko paulit ulit ung song ng train, tpos ung train scene sa spiderman2. u think i shud see it again?

***kwento
kahapon sa CR ng establishment na to, nagCR ako tapos meron sumunod na bading. kala ko nsa labas lang cya naririnig ko, "patingin naman..." i thought: what was he (she) thinking? ano ba to cheeseburger? tender juicy for sale? gagu to a! tapos pagtalikod ko sa urinal, nsa harap ko na cya **music from jaws** and pinipilit nya ko, "patingin naman sige na..." di ko na alam sasabihin ko, naisip ko ang mga biktima ng male rape, naisip ko ang mga pangarap ko, naisip ko si black mamba, inde ko pa nakikita ang volume 2, naisip ko ang mga bagong freshmen sa skul baka inde ko na makita ang mga batang may hubog. natuliro ako. sabi ko, "isusumbong kita, sige..." kanino sa security guard o kay mommy? tumakbo ako. papunta sa malayo. hanggang nakita ko ang video city. ayun. yun lang. puta corny.
woman by maroon 5

countdown

Posted at 07:14 AM

the top ..uhm... songs this week according to my taste buds...

1. ordinary - train
2. another used to be - joe
3. my happy ending - avril lavigne
4. burn - usher
5. in the shadow - the rasmus
6. hands to heaven - xtian bautista
7. itsumo - dice/k-9
8. woman - maroon 5
9. the show - south border



Whose eyes am I behind?
I don’t recognize anything that I see
Whose skin is this design?
I don’t want this to be the way that you see me

I don’t understand anything anymore
And this web that I’m tied up
Is taking me right up these walls
That I climb up
To get to your story
It’s anything from ordinary

And when the world is on its knees
With me, it’s fine
And when I come to the rescue
I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where’s mine?
‘Cause you’re what I need so very
But I’m anything but ordinary

Can you save me from this world of mine
Before I get myself arrested with this expectation
You are the one
Look what you’ve done
What have you done?
This is not some kind of joke
You’re just a kid
You weren’t ready for what you did, no

And when the world is on its knees
With me, it’s fine
And when I come to the rescue
I do it for you
Time after time
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where’s mine?
‘Cause you’re what I need so very
But I’m anything but ordinary

I think I’m trying to save the world for you
You've been saving me, too.
We could just stay in and save each other
I’m anything but ordinary

hapdi mata

Posted at 07:26 AM

i feel like a new born...

this coming term, i am supposed to make every peso of my tuition counts. i have the earliest dismissal time ever and i wouldn't want to waste more time and money by making myself distinguish where is actually nowhere and paradise.

i see myself in the mirror. and what do i see?

i make a few decisions and adjustments in my life. but, have i made the right ones?

i just had one of the best telephone conversations i ever had in years last night from 11pm-2am. it was clean, (at the beginning) then it shifted to questions that sometimes we ask why do we trust strangers. it lifted me a lot more than i could possibly think. there remains my inner smile before i sleep. awaken by 7am. and the dream was gone. or wasn't it?

bottomline is: i am sick and i needed a cure. must be a good one.
breathing by lifehouse

kamot

Posted at 09:37 AM

ngayong term break namin batong-bato na ko! i catched 'i am sam' around 1pm on hbo. again. and still, made me cry dammit! galing tlga ni sean penn. it is just now that i see his versatility.

movies: shrek 2 breaking all time box office, lapit na nya matalo episode 1 at 4th spot, talo na rin finding nemo as all time animated movie. meanwhile, music: only 1 wk on top si fantasia, usher's "burn" is back on top making 9 wks at #1. diana degarmo's new single debut at #14 sa billboard. not bad for a runner-up. yun lang, feeling dj...

kahapon...
nag-date kami ni mommy. sympre masaya. shop all u want. tpos dinner kmi saya. putik lang tong paltos ko sa paa, hirapan ako nkasandals na nga ako nadadali pa rin. pucha prang nacrucify ung paa ko!

after the pocket concert

Posted at 11:46 AM

atc. imagine ung 4pm nagstart na 5pm. tapos 6:15 tapos na ung pocket concert with two bands. pucha pra ka lang nakinig ng radyo.

it started out really nice with sugarfree, but the ending is spelled as s-u-c-k-s! it's not intended to sandwich, it's just the ckufing security of atc. they don't want us to make moshpit. tma ba? not even, jumping. pucha yun nga pinunta ko ron. kahit na mejo maraming jologs okie lang. asteeg ung bagong song ng sugarfree.

eto raw kasi ung deal sabi ni kuya marc and raymund: pag nagkagulo raw hihinaan ung music. cyempre mas mahirap ung side nila sila magaadjust. so, sandwich ended up singing only 5 songs. tpos ung huli, natural two trick pony, the other members started to take off their instruments. and marc was left on the stage singing the song in acapella. puta. ano yun pop idol contest???

asteeg pa rin!
food for the soul by sandwich

Posted at 11:22 AM

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Posted at 11:49 AM

4 days offline...

first 3 days a lang ng term ngarag na ko. sabi ni thresa kakaririn nmin ang pagawa ng site ... kc inde kmi matulungan ni suzette

bumalik ako sa pag s.a. sa matlab. kaaliw. sarap mangharras ng studyante. gago kc mapua


RDA radio daily allowance top 5

1. ordinary by train
i think i'm trying to save the world for you, you've been saving me too. we cud just stay here and save each other... i'm anything but HOOR-DAH-NA-REEEE!!!
2. another used to be by joe
i used to love someone that i didn't like... i used think that pain was a part of happiness. i don't want us to become another used to be
3. my happy ending by lavigne
thanks for acting like you care and makin me feel like i was the only one... meant to be supposed to be but we lost it... all the memories so close to me just fade away...
4. vindicated by dashboard confessional
hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption winding in and winding out the shine of it has caught my eye...
5. two trick pony by sandwich
it's such a shame that u can't be with me tonight... i have been waiting for you all night under the glow of the satellite...


paboritong libro ni hudas - bob ong hold on by JET

marquee attack

Posted at 11:24 AM

for a movie buff like me, it is a tragedy that i haven't seen a movie for three weeks now. the last was spiderman. dammit! i have to catch up!



i have never bought any pirated cds... that skips. just now. talaga lang???
o cge, medyo tumatalon lang. pero sobrang lala kasi nung nabili kong spiderman soundtrack. lam nyo yun, i am shouting "vindicated i am selfish i am wrong, i am wrong, i swe-swe-swe-swe-swear i'm right ... knew it it it it ol o lol alooooooong!"




i did a little (or maybe not) book searching yesterday. all six bookstores in recto! pucha! para akong sumali milo marathon. kasi first time kong magpunta mag-isa ron na inde ko alam kung san ako talaga pupunta! puro tanong, feeling tourist. tapos nakarating ako mendiola andun daw kc goodwill. ayun, sobrang ngarag na ko. ambaho ko na! kain ako sa jollibee. try nyo yung new mushroom and cheese burger pucha ang saraaaaP! or cguro kaya lang naging masarap kc gutom at pagod n ako. pero sarap talga. balik uli ako sa lugar na alam ko (napakalayong lakaran pabalik) kc wala ako makitang signboard na familiar sakin. nakasakay ko sa jeep pabalik ng lawton yung prof na nagbgay sakin ng flat 1.00 cympre usap. ayun lumipat na pla cya sa mapua makati.
basta ayun lang kaya tulog na tulog ako kagabi.



vindicated! i am selfish i am wrong! i am wrong! i swear i'm right! and knew it all along...
paboritong libro ni hudas (pa rin) meant to live - switchfoot

hi fans.

Posted at 01:32 PM

no problems. am i mean?

wala magawa. nagblog hopping. parang dati bar hopping lang. i found templates. ayun. copy paste. ayos na. next time na lang kwento.

day 2: patok na jeepney

Posted at 09:41 AM

kung merong freedom of the press, there should also be freedom to get annoyed by the press. let's begin...

i hate mel tiangco! (kapamilya ako)
she's the most annoying newscaster. kung kapusong totoo, why does she have to brag about it? it's not that i hate GMA, i just hate it when it's mel tiangco's turn. she always has to brag about how many ppl she helped. for a good person, i don't think it's good. puro siya salita, ang plastik! walastik! (aaayy.. corny)

lighter side... (seryoso ako)
it's nice to know that filipinos have regain their trust to the president. kung di pa nakalaya si angelo, wala nang kumpiyansa ang tao sa pangulo. i was never a patriot but it felt good upon knowing the good status of our nation regardless of what other countries would say. sa wakas.

what about me? (skul)
i'm on my 2nd week of this term. yung klase ko ng 12-4:30 without vacant of 3 subjects, nakakamatay! nagsunod-sunod lahat ng boring na instructors. lahat gumagamit ng projector tapos madilim, tapos malamig, tapos nakakagutom, tapos nakakaantok, tapos inde pa marunong magturo ung sa eng'g materials, ang subject na inde nman tlaga namin major kaya lalong nakakatamad. lalo na ung biotech (isa pang minor) na laging nag-aayos ng buhok at wala rin talagang kinalaman ang mga chemical bonding sa pag-design at pagprogram ng computer. putrages talaga! sino ba gumawa ng curriculum namin???

lighter side uli... (books)
habang lahat tapos nang mabasa ang purpose driven life, ako eto mag-uumpisa pa lang. good luck sakin. nawa'y kayanin kong tapusin kasi yung hiniraman ko 3days lang daw kinaya ng powers nya. yung libro ni hudas by bob ong naman, i recommend it. bili na!


another week. another countdown. feeling dj.... RDA recommended daily audio
1. ordinary by train (#1 for 3 wks)
2.vindicated by dashboard confessional
3. another used to be by joe
4. extraordinary by liz phair (new entry)
average everyday sane psycho... super goddess... average everyday sane psycho
5. everybody's changing by keane
6. my happy ending by lavigne
7. 2 trick pony by sandwich
8. woman by maroon 5
9. dream of me by kirsten dunst (luma na to diba)
10. unaffected by hoobastank
purpose driven life

day 3: virus alert

Posted at 09:47 AM

did you know that virus stands for Vital Information Resouce Under Siege?


july 20-21
ang malulungkot na sandali sa bus... nagmukhang monay ang puwet ko kakaupo. linsyak na traffic. (bob ong's)yung normal na 1hr naging 2hrs kaya wala na ko time mag-online. gutom na ko lagi!

here's what i reflected upon day 2 of the book: an excerpt of a poem from Russell Kelfer included in the purpose driven life by rick warren...
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept away that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into His likeness you grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!

maybe it doesn't sound like me, but somehow, maybe it does. what do i think now?

have you ever felt like your friends are under this conspiracy against you? just to test you? or just to let you down? i guess only paranoid and bored people like me think this way.



speaking of boredom, i am playing this KLIKER game in my friend's phone. the game is so easy. you only have to shot all the birds flying in the sky. simple. the more birds you shot, the higher your points. would you believe that when the time is out, the game is over??? it will struck you the moment you reach your climax of killing birds and see them fall one after the other. trust me, this game is good when you want to put all your destructive and mixed emotions in your fingertips and crash the keypads of your friend's phone. felt good! dammit!



let me slip away . . . let me slip away . . . let me slip away . . . against the current . . . against the current . . .

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day 5: there is more to life than here and now.

Posted at 09:57 AM

ang pogi ko! oo na panget na!

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day 7: gametes

Posted at 09:52 AM

s.a. = MATLab(Matrix Laboratory) student assistant. ako yun!

job description:

1. pag tinatamad pa ang instructor pumasok, ako na ang magpapapasok sa mga estudyante sa lab. uutusang itabi ang bag nila sa likuran at uutusang mag log-in na sila para makapagpractice.

2. pag merong inde makapaglogin, lalapitan at aalamin ang dahilan. pag alam solusyunan, gagawin. pag inde, hihingi ng tulong sa DoIT (dep't of IT ng mapua). nsa 4th floor pa, salamat sa elevator!

3. sasagutin ang mga tanong nila ukol sa MATLab na inde naituro ng instructor nila. minsan pag wlang instructor, magsisilbing guro. (shit! ginagalang nila ko!)

...
$. pag may nagustuhan, palihim na mamanyakin!

%. pag meron mukhang masarap sa kama, (pag nagtanong cya), hahawakan ang mouse na hawak nya rin, upang magkadaupang palad ang aming mga kamay... (fyi, lumaki nga pala akong conservative.)

*. pag tinatamad na at wala talaga ang instructor, idi-dismiss ko na sila para makauwi na kaming lahat at tapusin na ang bolahan.

(. pag merong peripheral na inde gumagana nang tama, ire-report sa DoIT upang makausap ang mga gumagawa ng gamit. at makaksama ko pabalik sa room ang masarap ng employee. sasakay kami ng elevator, na pinapangarap kong magbrownout minsan pag kami lang dalawa. tapos masa-suffocate siya. hihingi sya ng oxygen saken. at alam nyo na sunod. . .
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