Posted at 10:14 AM


Adopt Your Own Emo Kid!

someone's hit me

Posted at 11:02 AM

i am not pissed off. i am not mad. i feel bad. someone's hit me. someone has to be really careful with his words. i know i am already down but please, stop talking like ur some goddamn superstar. there are some things that have to be left unsaid and unseen but some sonofabitch just wanted to prove all things in front of my eyes, making me feast on it.

talk about the books i've read so far, i have no idea if i were to be those villains that i adore so much. i am just amazed how much they have planned their plots and make their victims pay for what they did in a very excruciating way, emotionally or otherwise. i think of so many things ahead that i tend to forget what's in front of me. i think i am dealing with the past and the future, but not with the present.

i thought i was over those stupid things. but then, i was wrong.

on the lighter side of things...

sino ba dito ang nanonood ng six feet under? it is one of the best tv series ever. di ko lang alam kasi wla ako makakwentuhan nito sa skul, sa bahay o kahit saan. maybe, i am just in touch with my philosophical side kaya naappreciate ko to like american beauty. badtrip pag eng'g school, prang wla ng time sa books, aside from those technical books. pag nagbabasa ako ng sheldon, nagugulat cla bakit mron pa raw akong time? eh pucha, i wanted to be well-rounded. yoko naman umikot buhay ko sa pagdedesign ng RAM and ROM. i think that even if you love your career so much, you have to know other things too. nakakabobo kasi pag gumagawa ng reports ng experiments, wala na ko makuhang ibang english words. puro na lang i conclude and i generalize. tpos kokopyahin na lang ung nsa procedures. pucha nakadepende lang nman grade mo sa gnda ng engineering lettering mo.


bibili ako new issue ng pulp! jason mraz on the cover... whoa!

may bago na nman kalbaryo. MP ng compiler pucha three weeks lang defense na. *sighs* i realized mas gusto ko hardware aspect ng pagiging coe kaysa mag programming.

favorite song for the week: in the shadow - the rasmus

rasmus fever

Posted at 05:28 AM

No sleep
No sleep untill I am done with finding the answer
Wont stop
Wont stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted

I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life

In the shadows

In the shadows

They say
That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then turn into there slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanne stay and wait for a wonder

I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life

Lately
I been
walking
walking in circels,
watching waiting
for something
Feel me
touch me
feel me,
come take me higher

I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life
I been watching
I been waiting
I been searching
I been living for tomorrows

In the shadows

In the shadows
I been waiting
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aliens, nba and machines

Posted at 09:40 AM

few days ago...

i've seen magnifico, finally! i've seen harry potter 3, unfortunately. i've seen the day after tomorrow, and i will never look at rain the same way again. i've finished doomsday conspiracy, and i think the truth is out there. i am now half believing the fact that aliens have already been here. and there is maybe a real global conspiracy to hide the facts about them because they are all afraid of public panic. yeah, vote for me!


eight hours earlier...

i am not really a big fan of basketball. kanina bago ako pumasok, the NBA finals begins with a national anthem. and guess who sang??? JASON MRAZ! i heard my fellow postees in his RKOP before bout him singing the star spangled banner (did i spell it right?). damn was he awesome?!? he sang it in acapella. (did it spell it right?). and so, i started watching the ball game. it was not boring though. the pistons was able to catch up with the lakers during the last quarter. i was on my way to school nung pinapanood ko, sa bus. normally, natutulog lang ako, from alabang to manila city hall, pero this time, i was half excited about the game and half-hoping that jason mraz will sing during the half time. sadly, inde! pucha badtrip. how much did they pay him just to sing the national anthem? is that all there is to it? anyhow, i realized, it was NBA, not MTV. darn!


an hour ago...

one week na na assigned samin yung machine problem about making a c++ program that accepts arithmetic expression, by making the parser part of the compiler. wala pa kaming grammar, then knina, na-approve na! saya pala pag ikaw tlga yung gumawa para sa group nyo...

san na?

Posted at 09:48 AM

badtrip si frank, daming ulap, di ko nakita venus passing like a dot in the sun kahapon! i waited for yesterday! badtrip!

about morning breath

Posted at 10:36 AM

hurrying up to the bus terminal this morning, i accidentally (unfortunately) saw this person i met a month ago. sumabay cya sa bus ko. normally, tulog lang ako sa bus. this time, i felt that i have a social obligation to talk. well he's taking up law. i know i love to argue, but not in the morning. our conversation ended up like we both hate each other. somehow, it was sensible enough to keep me awake. i learned all things from criminal law to the extent of earning three hundred thousand pesos just for a program. he has so many connections with the corporate world, i can tell he's not lying. he asked me if i can make a program or an entire software for this new company who is owned by his friend that will be used for the purchases and all that. however, i am not good at it. worse, i only know the basic but three hundred grand is very tempting.

minutes later, the conversation goes like he's not gonna let me sleep. you know what's worst? he's got this morning breath. good enough to keep me awake. yeah, i am wide awake!

an excerpt from six feet under when the boyfriend is mourning for his deceased loved one:

I never thought I would be in a relationship at all . . . that no one could possibly love me enough to stick around. But Bob stuck around. And so did I . . . It wasn't always easy, and it wasn't always fun . . .But it was always worth it.
doomsday conspiracy accidentally in love - counting crows

my happy ending

Posted at 08:37 AM

contemplate...

Claire: I mean, every single person at our school thinks they’re gonna be successful, right? Otherwise they wouldn’t even be doing this.

Russell: Yeah.

Claire: But I mean…what is success? Is it just money? Or fame? Or is it, like, the critics, loving you? Or is it…is it you knowing that you’ve done good work? Or what?

RUSSELL shakes his head and smiles. She keeps looking at the art. He looks at her, with love in his eyes.

Claire: I mean, this is a fucking masterpiece. But maybe the guy who made it just thought it was shit, and…and now no one even knows his name!

Russell: Simon Rodia.

Claire: God. I feel like such a phony.

Russell: No, you’re fucking brilliant.

***

who would've thought that jeepney fare will go up this high? at may butal pa!

***

naglinis ako ng kwarto ko kanina. tma nga friend ko, inde lang alikabok, lupa na! malala na baga ko, puno na ng lupa. nahihirapan na ko huminga... pano na to??? may date pa ko sa friday!

***
bright eyes - jason mraz

Posted at 03:36 AM

putna badtrip!

knina lang sa loob ng bus...
manong: san ka?
onad: city hall. pucha magkano na kaya?

manong punched holes in the tickets and gave it to me...
onad is only holding 25 pesos because he expected only a two peso hike. but, he was wrong... upon opening the ticket, he saw two holes, one on the [30], the other in [2]. pucha! from 23 to 32! that was an almost 40% increase! that wasn't cool!

manong received my one 20 peso bill and three 5 peso coin. then, he left. putna! sukli ko! it's supposed to be skyway pero inde umakyat. sabi nung ktabi ko, "since malaki na kita nyo, pagawa nyo tong aircon nyo ha!"

that wasn't the monday i needed. dammit!
sands of time - sidney sheldon crazy for you - madonna

everybody's free

Posted at 09:34 AM

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience…I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

tonight, not again

Posted at 10:08 AM

i woke up and i saw the dust in my eyes. it was something i haven't seen lately. oh i remember, i cried the other night. i can't even say why...

back to post modern onad life...
ang dami ng reality shows and it isn't cool anymore! i am seeing talent search and what do they bring, goodlooking faces with less talent! the contest is now based on popularity. and it's annoying. these stations are raking pesos from sponsors just to bring what the stupid people want. dammit!

oh i'm sorry, that wasn't me. that's my alter ego.

people come and go. any my sister who left to migrate with her husband in canada is coming back next week. yuhoo! but then, i can't afford to ask for something special or pasalubong because she's coming back due to the funeral of her father-in-law. i don't think expensive luxuries blend with funerals. dammit!

what else???
lately - stevie wonder

curbside prophet

Posted at 09:09 AM

may klase ako ng linggo badtriP!

kanina, i took back-to-back exams from 10:30-1:30, my mind's shifting from accounting to memory systems. sbi ko ppasok ako maaga pra aral (nerdox). ako pa lang sakay ng bus eh sabado, so i decided to ride an ordinary one. di pa nman mainit. (in short, nagtitipid na rin..) kaya yun, dumating ako sa skul na parang inde naligo. and i told myself, i am not riding the same bus again before skul. pde na pag pauwi na lang.

napanood ko uli ung finalé ng american idol, it was just now that i realized that fantasia deserves to win. ewan ko para kasing meron cyang inner voice which tells what really the song is. while she was singing her way to tears, i was having goosebumps. dammit! (this month's favorite exp)
love song - 311

one week with the rocketman

Posted at 02:28 AM

putrages nagtype ako ng mahaba na dc nawala. ang haba na nun. next entry na lang badtrip!

dinudugo

Posted at 08:48 AM

since every single detail of the past week i'm offline has been accidentally (or stupidly) gone, just forget it.

i went to school this morning (without any scheduled final exam today), just to see if the given take home quiz was sent, and at the same time, copy my classmates' answers... also, i would like to ask my i/o instructor to move the time of the quiz tomorrow because i am having my finals to one of the two subjects i am about to fail. at least, i am still optimistic.

bad news: natutulog yung compiler prof ko who should have sent the take home quiz. it is supposed to be submitted tomorrow pero wla pa rin ako natatanggap. and the rest of us. tapos ang butihin kong prof sa i/o, hindi ko makita. so ano gagawin ko?

kalimutan na lang silang dalawa...

tapos mamaya aral sa acctg kasi babagsak na. ganito kc yun, yung magaling ko seatmate kinopya word per word ang sagot ko. eh case analysis yun, so malamang talagang iba iba sagot namin. nung ntnggap ko ung paper ko last saturday, nakalagay dun "magic with mr. consigna", tpos ang nakalagay sa papel ni consigna, "magic with mr. montillano" i only have one shot of passing the quiz, baka nga exempted pa ko kung inde lang nangyari yun kaso malabo na. matalino yun prof ko 65 yrs old na. so one subject down. tapos yung isa nman, electromag, nagalit sa buong class at nag threat na inde na raw nya ibaba ang passing. eh isa lang samin ang umabot sa passing. tingnan natin... so 6 units down

kwento ako...
habang nagiintay ng vacant sa isang computer shop, binabasa ko ung dalwang mama (as in late 20's na lalaki) habang nagchchat sila. yung isa, si romanticguy (pucha all the girls out there, beware wen u see this nick), nagpopost siya sa main channel, "anyone who wants to chat with a romantic guy like me, pm me." yung isa naman tinanong yung description nya at kung ano hanap nya, "tisoy kasi ako, may itsura, pero hanap ko yung mamahalin ako ng tapat!" .... and he's chatting with a 14-F-Baguio girl. kawawa nman yung bata...

have u seen the video of my happy ending ni avril? wala lang. juicy fruit.

have u heard my song of the moment (look down). asteeg! it's a hit for me! eh yung itsumo by k-9. kaaliw. eh yung if i ain't got you ni alicia keys, tpos with usher. asteeg din! yun lang...
another used to be by joe

ngarag ngarag

Posted at 08:26 AM

andami exempted sa exam kanina! at halos lahat sila mas mataas grade ko! tapos ako inde exempted!!! putrages! kung inde ko lang ako nagpakopya, isang subject na lang sana problema ko. bagsak na ko!

lesson learned: INDE NA KO MAGPAPAKOPYA! SWAPANGAN NA LANG!

tapos wala akong lunch. ang huli ko kain 6am, after ng finals ko, sunod nman yung isang lintik na quiz. ang coverage 60 pages, so nagaral na lang muna ko tpos nagtake nun. napiga utak ko. tapos kumalam tyan ko. tapos sasabog na ulo ko! after 9 hours, 3pm na ko naglunch...

ika nga ni avril: so much for my happy ending...
di ako bakla - tuesday